Blame.

When everything falls down around you,
What do you do to survive?
Who do you turn to for support?
Where do you go when you just don't feel alive?

When everything goes dark, but your heart continues to beat,
When your body goes numb and things don't feel the same,
When your will to live and prayer of death meet?

I can't feel myself hurt anymore,
And I don't feel safe unless my veins are exposed,
And everything that has ever hurt me in this life,
No one knows;

And insanity washes over me,
Like death lingers over a fresh grave;

And nothing feels the same,
All happiness has drained,
And the only emotion I welcome,
Is senseless but familiar pain;

I don't want to die,
But I don't want to live,
Everyday I cry,
Another ounce of will power, I give;

In hopes to let things work themselves out,
I cry myself to sleep,
And force myself to go on,
Without the urge to weep;

And I know nothing lasts forever,
Everything will continuously change,
And everyone will die,
Everyone hurts, but they say Goodbye;

Just look back on time,
And pray for the best,
For when we die,
And our souls finally rest;

When I cry, When I lie,
When I try and When I die,
Will you pray for the soul that I sold?
And keep me warm we I get cold?

Would you always reflect our lives
When we get old?
Would you comfort me when I'm in pain?
And humor me when I dance in the rain?

Would you fight off those
Who put me on trial?
And would you try extra hard,
To make me smile?

When my frown is set in stone,
And the tears don't dry on their own,
And loneliness is all I've known,
Could you never leave me alone?

Would you kiss the wounds,
I self inflict?
And can I be the one,
You'll always pick?

I've been waiting
For so long,
And all the happiness,
Is long since gone;

The wounds open like an exploding flame,
And I lay crying on the tracks, waiting on the train,
Because nothing feels the same,
And I'm the only one to Blame.