Self Images and attention hookers.

From August 7th 2010.

Self imaging is one of the biggest problems in the world today. One's own self image can dictate their lives, and effect the way they see the world in general. It's born of insecurities one may have about themselves and can lead to being fake. Given that over the past years, certain things have been issues for the human race, whether it was birthmarks or birth defects, the way one talks or acts, skin color, or more commonly, weight, but can also include sexuality, education, etc. People find faults in themselves for these reasons, more often than they can spot the good things about themselves, and that's because of public opinion, and not how they themselves feel. It doesn't matter if you know you're smart, if the world, or people that surround you or your peers think differently, the pressure they cast upon you by voicing their opinions becomes far greater than the inner voice that is telling you otherwise. Hundreds of years ago, if you were the least bit skinny, you were unattractive, declared unhealthy. But today, it's quite the opposite, and with how the entertainment world (with all of its movies, television shows, music videos and magazines), is today, it's no wonder that young people, females especially, find themselves a problem if they do not meet the media standards of how they should look. This results in eating disorders, or various cases of depression brought on by the pressure and stress of trying to look and act like the "role models" they're stuck with. But the way I see it, unless weight issues are brought on by sloth or gluttony, most cases are that how one looks, is not always their own fault. Just like skin color and birth defects. Genes that are inherited and are of no fault of your own. If you're picked on, and judged for anything that is purely you, then those who judge have issues of their own. Naturally no one is completely innocent of judging others, and I am no exception to that, as many of you know. =D But unlike some of the other people out there, (not saying everyone judges every little thing, or does it frequently) I don't judge people for things that they cannot help. Example being, I'm not skinny. I'm not fat, but I do have my own problems with my weight, it fluctuates quite a bit and I can't help that. It actually started when I started getting depression, so look up symptoms of depression, you'll see, and I'm most positive that I'm not the only one out there with this problem. I got picked on in school, my last weeks there, for my weight issues, and before that, it was because I was always so quiet and shy. People will find any thing in the world to judge others about, just so they feel more secure. They find a weak spot where they know that they're stronger, and just use it against you. And what kills me is the fact that it's mostly girls that have to go through it. Isn't it bad enough to have the pre-teenage female hormones where you're totally emotional and sensitive to every little thing, (not to mention getting periods; sorry guys, had to mention it xD) without having to deal with the pressures of growing up, dealing with school, dealing with boys, and on top of all that, feeling the stress thicken from media standards? Feeling the need to be a certain weight or look a certain way whether you change how you look physically (not just your weight), or the way you dress, or act, the music you listen to; it's too much. But the reality is, that it's always going to be this way. And in learning that reality, you have to just do with it what you need to do with your self image. Not get used to it, but learn to accept it, and learn to accept the person you truly are deep down inside. Don't become some fake little bitch who is so insecure that she feels the need to flirt with every fucking body just to feel wanted, and change the way you act or speak, just to please a certain group of people you're probably better off without anyway. Don't become an illusion. Be yourself. And I'm done.